fake.

i'm not feeling like myself dis 2 weeks..

there are so many things going on inside my mind,my heart..

wish i could just turn off those feelings..

delete all bad memories..

i want to stop faking up my smile,my laugh..

i wish i could cry my heart out..

i wanna yell as loud as i want 2..

but..

its not going 2 make me feel better..

because that one 'cure' that i need..

isn't belong 2 me..

and i'm still wondering if it would ever be mine.